Its so hard having to be the strong one sometimes. I know its the right thing to do, to be there for all of your friends when they need somebody to lean on. Its the least I could do. But really, its just been happening so much these days. I guess misery loves company, and that company includes me. I feel like an automaton though, I've said "its okay" and "don't worry" so many times they've lost all meaning to me. I've tried counselling and probing them to talk about their day so often that I can almost repeat the routine by heart. The most heartbreaking part is...when I can't do anything at all. It seems like the moment people get out of one fix something else is coming back in. I don't even know where one begins and the other one ends anymore...its always problem after problem after problem after problem... It really hurts sometimes though. Hurts when they don't care, hurts when they can't see that I really am doing all that I already can. Because I try so hard and I do so much and I know sometimes it doesn't always work out but really its the best I can do... I'm not Superman or The Incredible Hulk... I can try to make things right but I can't always promise that they will be and I just wish that I am, that I had the power to make it all go away. But I can't. And it hurts when they take it out on me.
But I guess I have to learn to stop making it all about me. Because its not about me. Its about my friends, and the people I love, and their problems and how I can make them feel better...and I guess I try, because I know they're worth it. But today, when all was silent and I had some time to put my own life back in order, I can't help but wonder...who do I turn to? Who would be there?
Aaargh I guess deep down I know this is small shit compared to what they are all going through...which is why I rant here and not verbally...
BAH this blows. I really need to sing.
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Fanny The Frivolous Flapper (2003) high school performance - Biff Bang
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A Petaling Street Love Story: The Malaysian Musical (2007) - Eric
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In Pursuit of Happiness (2009) - Alan Hemley
Hairspray: Broadway's Big Fat Musical (2010) - Corny Collins
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